dear diary

i have a bad night. something was disturbing me trough the night. make me really hard to sleep again after a long and bad dream, i thought. maybe because of my book, i dont know. how could that book influenced me much.

i thought it was the love story that i really like. but i cant stop reading it. and even i read it more and more times,  to make sure i really understand their words. well, it just like i read harry in the old days, and one thing  i know for sure, i own those books so i can read more and more times.

lets talk about today's best issues. i thought i'll meet tts, but in my mind just full of thinking him as usual, i know for sure that it could be impossible, i know him much. hard for me to believe what he said, he'll come on january 3rd, i know that he'll not keep his words. but a moment i feel happy imagining he came to my office, say hello, make an appointment for a lunch meeting, and so and so. i just take my deep breath, smiling wether it would be happened again. im waiting.